Love.
The greatest power on earth, right?
The perfect experience.
A feeling.
A while back I used to write about love. It was the thing that brought me back to life and back from darkness, and brought me back to the world. The writing about love...not the love itself. I know that sounds weird because one would likely believe that being in love or finding love is what brings a person out of darkness...but this was not to be, in my case. It was most definitely the idea of love that saved my life.
In time, the writing about love caused within me, an awakening- an evolution. It was a "call to action". You see, when you deeply believe in something, you are moved to act on it and to change what you are doing with your life, in terms of your overall direction and focus. In my story, this equated to living a life of love, for love, with love, in love. In order to become that person, I would need to leave behind what I was at the time. I had to try something new. I needed to trust in the possibility of a completely different future.
You see, I had learned the truth about love and relationships. I learned it by studying love, by studying scholars and poetry and by receiving divine wisdom about soulmates and karmic relationships and Twin Flames and so many other types of relationships. I discovered the "connectedness" that the ideals of love and relationships share even when they cross boundaries of cultures and religions. People in all religions and all parts of the world, accept that love exists and they experience it, speak of it, teach it and even have it as a center of their most important values. I discovered the Oneness of all beings. I found the answer to the ages-old question: What is love?
So love. Do I have any right to talk about it? Do I have any right to hope that others might care what I have to say on the topic? Who am I to speak on this topic of love? What can I say that will have any impact to anyone who might be reading my blog? I am FULL of insecurities about it. I really am. But then again...I am also very certain about love...certain about what I know of love and what it is (and what it isn't!)...confident. I am not falsely modest or humble when I say I am full of insecurities about it, but also I am confident. The reason that both of these are true at the same time is that Love IS a paradox. Love is both happy and sad- good and bad- right and wrong- perfect and flawed.
Where My Journey Began (with Love)
My journey with love began- well at the beginning, of course. Children are full of love. But somewhere along the path we get tainted and then we must find our way BACK to love. So my journey began in 2009 when I read a book that changed the direction of my life. Now seriously... I had read a few life changing books leading up to this particular book...and those set the groundwork, making my mind a fertile place to grow new seeds of love. For example, I had read the book "The Four Agreements", and that small but important book planted the seed of consciousness that later developed into a fully awakened person. But the book that changed it all, was "The Secret" by Rhonda Byrne.
I recall that a very dear friend of mine, Jeanne Amadon, had been telling me for years to read the book. I was resisting reading it then. I think I KNEW it was going to be more then I could handle then...and I would have been entirely correct about that. So fast forward many years down the line and I am heading to the gym with my friend Danielle Christy, and I hop into her car and nearly sit on this tiny book..."The Secret". It is at this time, that I say out loud that I have been seriously thinking about reading this book. Just then, Danielle has to stop at family member's house for something...causing me to be in her car with said book for just about an hour: long enough to read 4 chapters. Trust me, the first 4 chapters are really all you need of this very important information.
I hung onto that book...and I read it all. I read it many times. In fact, I read it and I accepted and believed it with all my heart. I loved that book. I found that the Secret of the universe is that we attract everything to us. This newfound understanding meant, that ALL the power to change was inside of me. This information enlightened me, delighted me. It restored HOPE to my very soul. Anything I wanted, hoped for and needed was within my grasp at all times, and always had been! I did not even know my own self! What did I want? What made me happy? What did I want MORE of? What would I hope to eliminate from my life? How strong was my faith?
The book would lead me down other paths...paths that enlightened and elevated me spiritually and mentally on a variety of topics, such as yoga, meditation, kabbalah, earth sciences, environmentalism, and above all else...love. My view of what love is, was altered and distorted by years of childhood abuse and neglect; the deaths of many important people in my life, the abandonment from key people in my life; the cruelty committed against me by people who were jealous or hateful, but in whose web of deceit I had found myself entangled...and many other disempowering experiences in my life up to that point.
I answered the question about what made me happy...and the answer was "Writing".
When I asked myself what I wanted to write about...the answer was "Love".
Well, maybe initially it was just about Spiritual things in general, and how to become more spiritually elevated. But writing about THAT ended up bringing about an awakening which then began my writings on love. So I began "The True Love Blog I and II".
After many years of writing the blog, I had to stop writing the blog in order to pursue the ACTS of love. But now I feel a calling once again to write about it. But what to write...where to begin?
I'll tell a story. I have so MANY stories. And I think that by telling the stories, I can help others understand how I discovered the most real love of all. I hope you will read on...
namaste~
Lilac
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